the life of gabriel fernandez

a young boy from a home that was unstable and unhealthy to be in. around or be alive at. he was a sad boy who needed love and attention. who instead of asking for love he knew he wouldn't get, he would isolate and play with his toys and let his mother love him from away. where did the love come from?

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his favorite toy was a truck made from china because it was structured like the eiffel tower. it felt good to his hands. a boy of eight years old that was molested at the age of five, had his penis touched at the age of one and kicked by his brother who wanted to appease his mother. the mother’s hand killed him in the back of the head the following day after his molestation case. gabriel fernandez stayed alive until the age of eight, he was dead for three years in the head. a crazy boy. staying dead until you're alive effect. staying dead so you're alive. the yovani effect. where he was 5 in the head and 3 in the soul and 35 outside. when he passed away, he was a happy little boy. it's time to go home. 

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the real ugly. his great-uncle took him in but was taken away. his brother loved him for being “pretty.” but hated him for his sake. his mother hated him. his father loved him but molested him. his grandmother gave up on him. his grandfather loved him, but hated him but loved him too late. they all gave up on him. 

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the mother. party, fun and everything else. loved the attention but hated having to work for it. used looks for attention and brought home two men to abuse and take advantage of her and her children. she let those men take advantage of her son. gabriel fernandez. they would look at him, look at her, look away, and look back at her. they didn't know if they wanted to molest him. rape him. take him away. for being touched, he passed away go the devil, the devil trying to take him away but was saved by the light. why do you think the light gets mad when you try to take it's light away. he was being molested in the head. they wanted what he had inside all the light to stay alive. he was one when he was touched and five when he was molested. a five year old came back to stay alive to fight for his family.

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the father. his father was the one that molested him in the heart, in the soul, in the body. the truth the news doesn't want to tell. the scary truth. the one that will hurt people. the father. the one he trusted most. the one he loved most because he showed him love. he died and came back with an angel to send him for help, but passed away from his mother's rage, his step-father’s fury and his father's hatred of having been molested and having to have molest again and again and again until he turned himself into a man with no brain, no soul and a caricature of a man who never got help. even though, his father molested him he still had love for him.

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the abuse. he was trapped in a closet for not wanting to play. he was molested and didn't want to play, convey, or talk to anyone. he was depressed in ways you can't imagine. the depressive state of mind. he was whipped with a belt by the stepfather. hit with a bat. the mother would hit, slap, and enjoy torturing him in ways that he could no longer feel. the pain started to feel good. a victim of childhood abuse. physical abuse. mental abuse. and spiritual abuse. the burns he endured started feeling like pressure his body couldn't run from. he was stabbed in the heart by his brother, his mother and his stepfather and his absent father that loved him once and left him to look for love in ways you can't imagine. looking for love in unusual places, for longing you feel like you'll miss if you don't fall in love with every man or person that comes your way. the theory: treat me so bad so i can be bad to myself so i can find someone to be bad to me so i can be bad to myself again so i can be mean to myself so you can love me for being so crazy and love me for being so crazy and hate me but love me for being.

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the beginning. the mother has been placed in a life of prison. she has been brutally beat over the beating that took her son’s life. for the mistreatment of a child. the one he was put on life support for two days and officially passed away in a hospital bed. brain dead. his angel went back to heaven. waiting for someone who could come and release him. to the sun and the air we breathe. a sweet boy he was. finally free. a bird out of its cage. always stuck in a place he did not belong. free as a bird. as the sky. sweet boy. we’ll miss you forever. your legacy lives on. your heart, body and soul live on me, my child. 

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the step-father. the step-father was placed under prison until his execution date will be pronounced. however, the law that came into place has the death penalty permanently on hold for the next 45 years. a new way to punish child killers will out in 150 years. for now, a life in prison is suitable. what a lifetime in prison feels like, is what gabriel fernandez felt until his passing of eight years.

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the end. gabriel fernandez was a sweet boy who chose the wrong family to fall under. he was a boy with potential that could reach the sky if he were under the correct guidance, taken-care of, and the correct people that could love him from afar. he was a sweet, sweet boy. until next lifetime gabriel fernandez. we will miss you.

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the life of gabriel fernandez started on february 25, 2005

his favorite song was gloria stefan’s “it's to late” because it was his mother's. he wanted his mother to love him.