depression.

 

Depression.

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Women go through depression. Girls go through a depressive state when they feel out of place. Gay boys go through depressive states when out in society that turns into depressive clinical depression into adulthood. Men go through depression from those surrounding them. Suicidal thoughts run rampant in the way you’re not used to or accustomed to knowing. Cutting is not used to call for attention but to release the trauma or the unresolved issues that are going on the inside that no one can talk about because it would sound unbelievable. Release the bad blood.

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Depression is real. You can release your depression but it would take decades to break trauma unless you do it alone and alone only. Scary? Yes, it should be. Breaking depression leads to leaders, political activists, writers, and poets. The artist of the world. It leads into future successful stories of people overcoming their depression. They are rare and they are not out in the public.Only a few make it through.

 

My own personal story battling, overcoming and successfully studying depression. There's the give yourself depression so your mother would love you type. The Yovani type. Learning how to move your face, but letting your body hang. Letting your hands hang loose so your mother doesn’t worry about what's going on in your head. Learning how to be cute and make cute facial expressions so you can help your mother with her own depression. Letting your mind erase itself so you don’t have to add anymore troubles to your mother’s life. Forgetting about anything but the small feelings life has to offer so you can bring them with you when it’s time to leave the earth because your job has been completed.  

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But God has other plans. So you study depression and depression only. So no other little gay boy has to go through depression like you. It’s called the Yovani effect. Sincerely yours, Yovani Santana also known as the formerly known artist Yovani Bernard.